Friday, 17 February 2017

Beauty vids,Jail and MURDER..

Well what a mess I am in...

I posted a video to my personal Facebook page yesterday of Elliott dancing to MC HAMMER and Facebook jailed me for it.

I know this seems like a minor detail but when you are practically a vlogger/obsessed with documenting every moment of life.. being banned from posting videos feels like a death sentence.

the worst part is that there was no warning and no recourse seems available!
I don't know how long I am blocked from posting videos, I cannot post them to my personal facebook or my blog facebook (talk about a livelihood killer.. ) If I can't share my blog life.. I don't know what I will do.

I am trying not to panic and I will keep you posted with the outcome but for now you can follow my every move on Instagram..

and on YouTube..

I feel like if anything, maybe this will promote me to actually do some work and stop procrastinating by sharing random fb videos.. maybe... ??? hahaha

also I wanted to say a HUGE THANK YOU to everyone who contacted me about my last post, the c-section one.. thank you, thank you, thank you.

I haven't had a chance to get back to everyone individually yet but I read all the comments and stories and it feels so good hearing others experiences and having your support through these uncertain situations! #Mommasunite! and #humansunite! #thankyou :)

In other news..

I've kind of found my new favorite thing..
its making short videos!
I mean not fancy, non lighting, then edited down to a minute or so videos!

I find them so easy to film when I'm not hassled with pressure of perfection or mumbling about forever! I just film, edit down and post!

I am really, really liking them!
so far I've been sharing mostly on fb and Instagram but I thought I would also upload them to YouTube with a list of all the products I used.

That way you can rewind or replay areas and have the product list at your fingertips!

Some of the videos I've posted as is, 60 seconds but the latest I uploaded was an extended version at just under 5 mins.. in case you do want to hear me mumble about the products in a bit more detail!



HAVE YOU WATCHED RIVERDALE???!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!?

It is a new Netflix show.. however they're releasing the episodes one per week..
WHAT IS THAT NETFLIX?!>!?!?!?!?!?!?!
most of my love for Netflix comes from the option to stream an entire season in one day..
I am really, really, not a fan of the one episode a week release and I hope this does not become the norm.

anyway, its loosely based off the Archie comics characters!
how fun is that!

I mean Riverdale is a suspenseful murder mystery, torrid love, style show...
but it is SO catchy!
the episodes come out every Friday and I already watched todays.. so now I'm sweating it out another week. booo
that's it for now!
keep checking back though because I've got the blogging bug recently! XO

Friday, 10 February 2017

Hello, I'd like a c-section please..

this was me at my doctors appointment a few days ago.

I met my delivery doctor for the first time and anxious was not the word to describe my emotions...

I knew that my family doctor would not be involved with the delivery and would be handing me off to the OBGYN around 20 weeks in, so I didn't bother to burden him with my delivery woes. Instead I waited anxiously for an OBGYN name to be pulled from the lottery pool and unloaded my cargo onto her.

And luckily, thankfully, amazingly, she was so supportive and understanding.

I thought for sure I had blogged about my labour and delivery with Elliott but I just searched and all I could find was my return to work post when Elliott was a year old..
and a promise to share his delivery story but at that time it was still too fresh for me to go into..

LOL that should give you an idea of where I am coming from with this C-section request!

I know things like delivery and new baby raising topics come with VERY opinionated and controversial thoughts. I don't want this post to be like that, so if you are fiercely against requested sections please just exit now.

there are many roads that lead to a healthy, happy baby and..
my chosen path (hopefully) is caesarean section..

ugh to get into the whole Elliott story would be exhausting so I will just cut to the chase.
I knew I was going to have trouble giving birth, I just always knew it.
Call it intuition or a natural sense or just call it crazy, but its true.
In Newfoundland you see your family doctor until you give birth, and at that point you see whatever delivery doctor is on call.
My family doctor was not a very likeable women.
I will just leave you with a few thoughts she bestowed on me:
"Oh you have morning sickness, well I had morning sickness and I had to work in a hospital with sick patients. imagine how hard it was for me to be pregnant."
^ I had HG extreme sickness and I was a letter carrier. I was throwing up in a sobeys bag on peoples front porches LOL. this is not a competition!
"why are you getting emotional?"
^ when I was two weeks overdue and my parents were only in town for a couple more days, I was hoping to get induced. she did finally sign off on an induction but it was after an emotional rollercoaster.
The delivery hospital was about an hour away so we made the trek and..
 I was in labour for about 1.5 days when they finally said I was far enough along to go into the delivery room. but I WANTED an epidural, it had always been my plan to have an epidural but for some reason they WOULD NOT give me one. They just kept brushing it off and brushing it off.
Finally in the delivery room I said "I WANT AN EPIDURAL!!!!!"
and the nurse was like "Oh I didn't even know you were in pain, you haven't made any sounds"
that was because the pain was SO, SO, severe I could not make a sound.
lol sounds funny now, but trust me, it's not.
they had been whispering for 2 days about a section because Elliott's heart rate kept dropping and even as I was getting the epidural the anaesthesiologist was asking "are we not doing a section??"
they ignored him and told me to push when I felt a contraction, they kept looking at me like 'why aren't you pushing?'
but I kept telling them I NEVER FELT A CONTRACTION.
all I could feel was a constant, never ending, steady, crippling, I want to die pain.
there is not really words to describe that kind of pain, I hope the above sentence will do it justice. ;)
then they told me push, so I pushed.
then they screamed at me to stop.
the baby's heart beat dropped drastically, we had to get to the ER NOW! emergency section.
then they told me it was too late and they screamed at me to push.
IT was horrible.
I can't even describe what was happening because it was so chaotic.
at the end of the day, Elliott was fine.
I had a 4th degree tear and went into surgery.
they say 4th degree is worse than a section for recovery. (I can't compare yet but will let you know if this section goes ahead as planned!)
we were in the hospital 5 days then sent nurses to our house to check on me once we were home and they were shocked at how much I was moving around and how little pain I was in.
so that's promising! the one hope I have is that I will have an easy recovery from a section, my body has always healed well so I have my fingers crossed!
this delivery doctor asked me if forceps were used with Elliott and I think they were and/or the vacuum but I can't recall exactly, so we are going to have the files sent from Newfoundland to really see the details.

^ poor little guy was banged up but all good after a few days!
so long short of it is that she said a C-section would never be denied to a 4th degree tear mother if that's what I wanted BUT we could also look into inducing a week early to make sure I don't go overdue again and she pointed out how labour seems to get faster and easier with each delivery...
I said I would think about it.
and I will, because ideally it would be best if I could let things happen naturally.
but I have this thought gripping my brain that I KNOW my own body and I know a scheduled section would be the best route.
so I'm 85% sure I will be going with the section!
but never say never!
keep you posted!

Tuesday, 7 February 2017


Ok going into this I want to be perfectly clear:
I am just a regular super annoyingly opinionated average postal working women.

I am not a scientist, a beauty expert nor a direct sales guru.

I don't want anyone to get upset or feel personally attacked..
this is a sensitive subject but I want to share my real and honest thoughts.
*they may be wrong! I am wrong a lot.
but I would rather tell you my thoughts honestly and you can send me any conflicting arguments and then I can write another blog and share the new things I've learned later.
that's how this blog works, I may write about the same things a lot, that's because things are always evolving!
most of the time I hate a song when its first released, 2 weeks later I love it!
I was against the benefit roller lash for like 2 years, now I use it everyday!
see open to change, Namaste.


monat, monat, monat.
if I had a dollar for every Monat distributer who messaged me.. I may have $100 dollars cha ching!
its a hair care line
its a fairly new company, 2014
its a direct sales business plan
before I let that take over I am going to tell you the tests I did and the results..
I had some samples

so for 3-4 weeks around Christmas I used the above samples solely and watched the results..
Monat distributers make LARGE claims about its natural ingredients, hair growth abilities and how it keeps your hair looking fresh for longer.

Naturally based claims: ok what I could find about its "naturally based" ingredients all sounds good, it was a lot of fruit and vegetable oils listed on the website but when I read the back of the sample packaging there were a lot more words I couldn't pronounce. (typical in the beauty world)
The reason for it being "naturally based" and not "all natural ingredients" is from what I can see when things are actually all natural they would most likely have to be kept in the fridge and they would still have a very short shelf life.
My experience: I am no expert in this arena but I am trying to be more diligent in ingredient reading!
You know how much I love my pure coconut oil for all things beauty and I clean everything with vinegar and essential oils! 
so I like what I see listed for Monat, I just wish there were some independent studies that weren't preformed by the Monat money machine itself so I could genuinely gauge how "natural" it is.
alas, ces't la vie.
It looks good from the outside looking in.
the hair growth claims:... I don't know. I mean, again, the problem with Monat is that all the "research" and information available is done through they're own website! I looked up many avenues and this being a new company there doesn't seem to be any individual studies done. It claims that some of the ingredients do this:


Powered with Red Clover Extract, a gentle emollient that reduces scalp inflammation, strengthens and thickens hair, and hydrates the scalp to stimulate natural, noticeable hair growth.
My experience: Honestly, I felt like my hair grew, some.
this is a tough one for me to judge because there are a lot of factors at play here,
I am pregnant and taking pregnancy vitamins.
I took out my hair extensions and let my natural hair grow freely for a couple of months.
I wasn't curling my hair because it was so soft due to monat, I didn't find it held curl as well.
so that last one could've lead to a longer hair illusion^
I think it may help hair growth minimally.
I don't think it would cure a bald man, nor would I want it to.. imagine if you dropped some on your face! haha
If you struggle with growth maybe it would help you a lot? it definitely didn't hurt in the growth area! I will say that much.
less washing, better looking 2nd,3rd,4th day hair: again they just claim it, I don't really see that much behind it but there's also nothing disproving it.
My experience: meh, I found it was an average hair cycle for me. I would still wash my hair every 2nd-3rd day. I did find the smell of my hair lasted longer and I enjoyed that.
the shampoo and conditioner left my hair smelling great, clean, not overpowering and I could still smell the smell a day or two later.
ok see a couple photos below of my Monat period:

^ My hair looks shiny and healthy.
I wore it straight a lot because it dried well this way, I didn't do much curling because I found it weighted my curls down! my hair didn't feel heavy at all! it just didn't want to hang onto the curl.

^ glossy, smelled good.

I looked for some photos from before I started the Monat testing but honestly my hair looked almost the same!
For many years now I've cut out box dying and have been using salon recommended styling products so my hair has been relatively healthy.

Now my final thoughts: this is where I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings...

I would repurchase Monat. I was very happy with the results, I liked the way it made my hair feel, even the leave in conditioner! I am not a leave in type girl but this leave in was light and non greasy!

I went on the website to make a purchase..
(especially this hair growth thing?? is it an illusion? is it minimal? is it my pregnancy vitamins??)

I have tons of reps who are amazing and message me all the time to see if I need help/advice but I am such a private hermit! I hate messaging people to order and then you have to do the awkward pick up/drop off arrangement, I didn't want to be pressured into buying more products than I wanted, I would have to wait for it to be delivered...
see where I am going with this???

I just LOVE salon service!
I walk into my hair dressers, say I need my Moroccan oil hair mask and BAM I am using it that night!

when I went online I was reminded...
there is the minor price issue.
I don't mind paying for quality..
I will pay small fortunes for beauty products..

but the Monat hair mask is $65 for 148ml
my trusted Moroccan Oil hair mask is $35 for 250ml

I didn't want this to become a face off between Moroccan oil and Monat because I knew the Monat distributers would come to whoop my butt!

but I did do a bit of research on the Moroccan oil brand just to ease my mind,
it went through a bit of a tussle around 2011-2013 for not using as much Argan Oil as it seemed to portray it did, but for the most part is a typical hard to read ingredient list, then gets to water and vitamin sections. Researchers seem to agree it doesn't let harmful chemicals into your skin, it is debatable about how much it actually "heals" the hair but if it works for you, it works.

Monat may be more "naturally" friendly.. don't come for me distributers! hehehe

I was about to place a Monat order online but caught myself and said "I just can't afford this right now". It would've been maybe $130 order (that's not counting shipping, I don't know the shipping costs).. for 2 little products! for less product than what I pick up at the salon! and it wouldn't last me longer, I was using the same amount of Monat as Moroccan oil.

I remember watching the The Shopping Bags *Hi Anna and Kristina!!*
years ago and they said the real recommended shampoo size per wash, is about the size of a dime!

ever since then I've really be cautious not to waste! although, like Anna, I am all about the big lather! lol

OK. so, would I use Monat again - YES.
would I recommend you have a heavy piggy bank before spurlging - YES.
could you maybe try it if you wanted to test the hair growing abilities - YES
would I become a rep - YES and no.

I've never been a rep for anything, I don't particularly like these programs, I do think they inflate the price, they can add pressure to your friends etc to purchase and I just like walking into a dang store!
I hate being a presenter or party hostess person..
but I would like to get the discount..
on the other hand I had an info book with the rep signup information and the bundles you need to purchase to start your own "party kit" type thing were ranging from $200-$900!!

I'm expecting a new baby.. I don't have $9, let alone $900 at the moment.

like literally, even if you tell me I'd make my money back in a week, I just don't have $200-900 dollars to shell up front...
that's what I don't like about these programs..

why can't I just buy you at a salon Monat??

Monday, 6 February 2017

It's a GIRL... plus baby nursery..

I was going to share my thoughts on Monat (hair product) this blog post but I'm so behind on last weeks info, I wanted to catch up plus Monat isn't going anywhere..
(although sometimes I wish it would, with all the messages I get about it.. just kidding!!;))

I had two doctors appointments last week (and one coming up tomorrow), I'd better get that info out before I forget the details! If you follow my social media you would have seen...


^ this is actually Elliott! lol
his 19 week ultrasound, I cannot believe this was 3 years ago!
I have no photos of baby#2, baby girl! eeeeeppp
yet, because Halifax doesn't give you any!
when I was at the IWK hospital for my ultrasound last week they asked if I would fill out a questionnaire about childcare.. if I thought it would be helpful for them to provide childcare during ultrasounds since no one under 12 is allowed in the ultrasound room with you.
I said yes, because my last ultrasound (December) we did take Elliott not knowing Nick would have to wait with him and miss the ultrasound because he wouldn't be allowed in the room.
but I wanted to note at the bottom of the page that I would bypass the paid childcare if they would provide a dang photo of my fetus!
I mean we paid the $40 to get a cd sent to us with all the photos on it, but $40 is costly and you have to wait for it in the mail!
there is something nice about walking out with a photo in hand! Newfoundland sent us home with 3 different photos over the period of Elliott's gestation.
anyway.. that's enough whining ;)
we went to the ultrasound last Monday January 30th, and everything was good. It lasted about an hour and at one point Nick and I both thought we saw something that was a boy part... but she was quickly scanning over everything so we weren't positive.
although I was convinced in my mind that it was a boy, I felt justified like I had seen something and that was that.
The ultrasound tech went to show the results to the doctor and when she returned she said
"Oh I didn't tell you guys when I was looking for the sex, did you want to see a photo to make your guess"
and we were like "YES"
this is what we've been waiting 5 months for!
she pulled up a photo and SHOCKER...
I tried to get a hint from the tech but she didn't break, she was smiling a lot when I was saying "I really think its a girl, I think that's a girl"
so we left cautiously optimistic that what we saw was a little girl.
wait 3 more days... go to my family doctor just so he could confirm.
the nurse took us in and said "do you want to know?"
we said we think we know but we're just not positive but we think girl...
and she said IT'S A GIRL!!
I still don't believe it and I think I will be in shock until the day she is born and I see for myself!
I always thought I would have two boys, it just seemed a sure thing I don't know why.
so planning for a girl is very exciting!
and before we know it the baby will be here, so we decided to get a head start on some rearranging we need to do..
first step, moving the double bed from the guest room into elliotts room
and the single bed from elliotts into the guest/baby's room.
we purchased this day bed for Elliott's room before he was even born!
we needed some extra sleeping spaces for guests so we figured this would be Elliott's bed once he was out of the crib.. but since Elliott has the bigger of the two rooms it makes more sense for Elliott to transition to the double bed and skip the day bed all together!

luckily a couple of years ago when I ordered Elliott's bedspread I returned the twin size and went with the double! I just figured bigger was better since he kicks his blankets around and now I don't have to run out and purchase anything.

the double bed is in his room and his crib is still in there.
we aren't in a rush to transition him to the bed, the baby will be in our room in a bassinet for the first few months anyway but this way its ready to go.
(he already sleeps in a bed at the babysitters so I'm optimistic it won't be devastating to him)

I had just painted the guest room Navy back in the summer so its staying Navy!
and luckily it would've worked for boy or girl, I was going to do a little nautical theme for boy with reds and whites but since its a girl there's lots of coral/navy inspo below..

the guest room was starting to become a dumping ground anyway so it felt good to declutter.
& the day bed looks adorable plus makes the room look so much larger!
I would love to be one of those home owners whose house is all white, minimalist and everything in each room is completely matchy match coordinated... but I am not that person.
I don't know how people are those people???
kids gather SO much junk, people give it to you like crazy, you get it for them like crazy and unless you're throwing out/donating things on a daily basis I don't know how you keep up.
so I embrace the "lived in" look sooner rather than later.. because its gonna happen eventually ;)

I do need to pick up a couple more Christmas lights to finish off behind the bed, and I'm going to replace the pillows with a ton of white pillows & maybe a little splash of gold..
luckily there are a ton of Navy baby nursery's on pinterest see below...

I find this so funny because if Elliott had been a girl, she would have still be named Elliott!
Its really caught on as a girl name over the last few years!


I'm hopeful I can find some crib bedding I really like, I'm not sold on florals but I do like it!
I would probably prefer a simpler chevron or block pattern but we will see.
Other than that the doctor said the baby is at 53% body weight on the average baby scale, which is what also hinted us towards a girl because Elliott was a monster at 99% everything!
so this baby may be daintier but there's lots of time to catch up to her brother, so no guarantee's!
she is due around the middle of June and she is currently breech.
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow to meet the delivery doctor so I will keep you posted on that!
after our ultrasound but before we knew 100% it was a girl, I did a little bit of shopping at Joe Fresh because their sales are amazing!

all the baby girl clothing was marked down so cheap, $1.94-6.94 and I couldn't resist picking some up! I brought the clothes with me when we went to my family doctor in case I would need to return but luckily we didn't :)

Thursday, 26 January 2017

Weight gain, ER stays and gender predictions...

Eeeekkk so we're finally 20 weeks in!!

I'm not sure where to start since its been so long between updates!
I do have HG so its a long pregnancy full of sickness ups and downs, it doesn't go away for me I just live with it and get through day by day.

BUT some days are worse than others and near the first week of January I ended up in emergency, so, so, so sick!

I had been vomiting for 3 days straight, STRAIGHT.
I mean could not get out of bed, could not eat, drink or shower.
I couldn't even watch tv or sleep.
just vomit and occasionally cry.

so I went to the ER and waited for hours, total time 7 hours.
Which is why if I can avoid it, I AVOID IT. I have to be dying to go to the ER, especially while pregnant because there's really not much they can do.

but I was so dehydrated I caved and thankfully it did help me tremendously! they gave me two litres of fluid and a Zofran which was a miracle worker for getting my vomit under control.

It was not a glamorous stay! hahah ^
I felt so disgusting, I couldn't even get changed, I went in my 3 day old PJ's and robe.
I started to feel a rebound after that liquid boost and finally felt like I could sleep and get myself back to a regular normal of sickness!
Since I had been so severely sick I noticed some weight loss and wasn't surprised when at my next doctors appointment I had only gained 3 pounds.
that being said I haven't updated the blog on weight in so long so lets catch up!
at last reported November weight gain I was at 153 pounds (25 pounds total gained)
my January appointment has me currently at 167 pounds (37 pounds total gained)
she said I only gained 3 pounds since my last appointment so my December weight gain must have been hefty! (damn Christmas treats!)
I still feel A-ok about my weight gain, its been rapid but I'm not surprised and I'm trying to keep a goal of 200 pounds in mind for the long term.
We know plenty of celebs who hit the 200 mark when pregnant (Jenny McCarthy, she talked about it constantly on the view! haha) and its not an easy recovery but after birth weight drop and eventual healthy eating/gym life is my long term goal.

Elliott vs baby 2017.. I DO weigh more this round but I don't feel like I look hugely larger. however... I will tell you I think 10+ pounds of the weight is in my boobs! omg I can barely breathe! maybe that will make for easy breast feeding?..???!

so we are getting through it!
I'm starting to think about the little things and stress out about so much...

"will this baby sleep as well as Elliott?" obviously there will be a transition phase but Elliott was an excellent sleeper from very early on! I'm not sure I can cope if I have an up all night and up early morning, no sleep baby! eeeeepp

and then you panic about their personality.. its non rational but its true!
I love Elliott so much and his personality is SO defined, sweet and hilarious.
"what if I don't love my new baby as much" more specifically for me is what if I don't love their personality?? it sounds weird but its true!
how do you nurture 2 separate persons/personalities while giving them equal love but individual attention to unique strengths??

I think the easy answer to all my questions is "you just do"
I haven't been there yet obviously but transitioning from 0-1 was challenging but surprisingly simple at the same time and I think that will ring true again.

then people ask if we want a boy or a girl and the answer is "I REALLY DON'T KNOW!"
I don't have any sway! I think a girl would be amazing and I've always wanted a daughter but I think another boy would be so easy and Elliott would love a brother close in age to him.
not to mention I would have to buy NOTHING for a boy!
if its a girl at minimum I'm going to want a couple of fashionista, maybe mommy and me matching outfits ;)

Monday, 23 January 2017

Lips, skin and bed frames!

My skin has been begging for moisture lately but nothing seems to satisfy!!
My poor lips have been so dry and I haven't even been wearing lipstick... lipstick has not touched my skin since Christmas!

I have not been wearing ANY makeup for at minimum a couple of months thinking it would be good and healthy for my skin to breathe/try to keep as many extras out of my body as possible but these darn pregnancy hormones DGAF. I've been diligent with my skincare and face washing but alas still broken out, oily and dry. hhhhmmmph

I had this little Glam glow wet mud lip treatment on hand as a Christmas gift (I always pick up some universally friendly gift options for those unexpected times of need) but I didn't end up using it and instead of waiting for another gift giving opportunity I decided it was worth a try on my desperate desert lips!


I had been using the Bite beauty Agave lip mask ^
but I'm not a huge fan of it.
I know it has a massive following and some people swear by it but personally I find it SO thick
It is a thick, goop on your lips, whenever I apply it before bed its such a pain to find sleeping positions that won't lead to cat/dog fur stuck ALL OVER your lips/ the goop being smeared all over your pillow case (I'm a side/stomach sleeper)
& the pay off was not luscious, hydration like I had hoped.
Its more at the time of wear your lips will be so thickly gooped it qualifies as hydration but long lasting hydration not guaranteed.

the glam glow wet lip balm on the other hand has a smoother, almost consistency of Vaseline but thinner plus subtle sheen to it look and feel.
I feel like the hydration is lasting and it has minimized my crackage/peely lip problem.
the downside is the price tag.
I like to use it at least once throughout the day and apply liberally at night, not kind on the purse strings when using that frequent but still I can see me repurchasing.
unless I can find a replacement (send recommendations!!)
oooh just came to mind another similar lip balm, Blistex!
the little blue tub, that is a very similar consistency to the glam glow.
I really like blistex but there's that rumour flowing that your lips get addicted to it, is that true??
between blistex and glam glow the glam glow is more hydrating!

I paid $20 for the glam glow at Christmas but looking now at I see that the price is only available at $30.
at first thought I was happy!
I thought I scored a deal but upon further inspection I saw I actually had less .oz in my tub, actually half less! so the $30 price point now seems like a deal! darn it for not investigating at xmas!
Other than that I've been trying to stay on a no buy...
now when I say "no buy" its a bit different than the typical no buy..
scratch everything I just said lets just call it a "less buy"
more fitting ;)
like almost everyone else in the world I am trying to get more 'minimalist' in 2017..
but I am not your typical minimalist, I like stuff. I like LOTS of stuff, I love my things lol
I watched the documentary Minimalism and it didn't touch me like so many others..
actually I found it so uninteresting I couldn't get through the whole thing.(snooze)
*I know this wasn't the whole theme of the movie*
but giving up everything and owning a whopping 21 items is not plausible for a family of 4.
keeping just 21 items in my purse would be a struggle.. hahah
I appreciate the thought and I feel like my minimalism journey is more about being conscious to where I spend my money and the items I purchase.
Over the past 2 years I've really tried to stop replacing perfectly good items with more perfectly good items.
some things are harder than others.. *cough* lipstick.
whenever I see a lipstick, I see undertones and finishes and applicators.. I mean they all look completely unique to me! so that's been a struggle.
the basement clutter game is real, so I've been focused on de cluttering style minimalism there and working from the bottom up. with a new baby on the way this may stall because the newborn clutter game is REALLY REAL.
 I did place a teeny tiny Sephora order recently but before you make me feel guilty this falls under my 'less buy!'
I don't know where I've been because when roller lash came out  I was like 'meh'
fast forward to now and I am in love! I recently received another sample and used it dry!
I like the curl and length it gives.
It can be a little messy and you have to be careful not to over apply *spider lashes* but I was so impressed I decided to purchase the full size!
I splurged,
My brows are something you just don't mess with!
I don't know why I ever bother trying any other brow product, the Anastasia brow wiz is my hands down go to and you will never see me not repurchase!
*I've tried the brow wiz with the larger applicator but it does not work like the original with the tiny pen point applicator! I need that precision!
all the others pictured above were freebie add ons which I've also been more selective in choosing!
I find a face mask or hair product I am 100% more likely to use in a timely manner vs a fragrance.
so unless I see its a fragrance I've been really interested in I will opt out rather than order just for the sake of "freebie"

not pictured above but also in my freebie choices was this ^
this is my first overnight mask and I love it so far!!
I've used it two nights and my skin feels fresh and plump in the morning
thumbs up!
my typical hydration plan is the Fresh lotus preserve face cream which I try to apply both morning and night. Its light and perfect for my sensitive skin.
and the Kiehls creamy eye treatment has been a lifesaver for hydrating my eye area.
Its a bit heavier but it really soaks in.
ALRIGHT jeeze, I have so much to say and never any time to blog about it!
Elliott has a couple of daycare dates this week so I'm hoping I can get some more updates in on baby and doctors appointments but that's just too meaty for todays post!
I will share some *non pinterest worthy photos of our bedroom makeover!
Our bedroom like so many master bedrooms gets shoved to the bottom of the list and becomes a catch all but I really want to get it organized before baby comes.
*hello bassinet, video monitors, baby swings, toys, pets, Elliott, everyone, everything.. .
I've had the same headboard/footboard for SO many years!! I mean teen years to now, 15 plus...  
I love my bed its comfy and familiar but lately its been looking worse for wear.
Its outdated and extremely scratched up from pet wear so we swapped it out for a canopy bed frame and I'm kind of loving it!
see below!

^ old bed, I'm thinking I may try some Annie Sloan chalk paint to update this set and put it in Elliott's room. send hints on chalk paint/thoughts! :)

^ new bed frame!
Our room is quite large so the canopy is perfectly suitable/almost grounds the room better than I thought & is a nice focal point.
but should I add sheer curtain panels????
Is that too juvenile??????
I don't think I want to but then I scroll pinterest and get confused..
I'm not sure!
we still have a lot of cleaning/pinteresting to do to this room but I'm happy to have the bed up for now.

I was worried about the pets not being able to hop over the footboard (Marley is over 8 and her joints have been acting up on occasion) but so far so good!
See me, Marley, Roxy and Annie happily cuddled in :)

so let me know what you think, what you want, what you've been up to!
baby update soon! xoxoxoxo

Monday, 16 January 2017

Rollin' in the doh...

Since the frigid temperatures and morning sickness has hit, I'm finding it a whole lot harder to occupy Elliott..

He LOVES to play and stay busy..
he's not hugely (is hugely a word? is this a bigly moment? ... no I think its a word..)
into television, I mean he loves elmo but that's maybe an hour out of our day and he doesn't play with the ipad ever.. mostly because he hasn't developed that addiction yet and I'm good with keeping it at bay for as long as possible.

so, what do you do that's different, cost effective, and indoors/inside our same boring walls, everyday!?

I don't know?
I am asking you..
What do you do???!
I need some fresh ideas!

This week I will say I've been pleasantly surprised with myself and I'll give you a sneak peek of what we have been up to!


YESSSSS! this was a huge win yesterday!

the recipe is SO easy, you 99.9% will have all ingredients in your pantry already.
I did and I'm not a huge baker/homemade anything kind of gal.
the hardest part was mixing the food colouring with the dough, because I'm very ahem, particular. I have an OCD need for things to look pretty so the wrist took a beating wrestling food colouring into 4 different coloured balls..
but if your child is older you could always get their assistance at this point or you could just leave the doh, well dough coloured. it wouldn't take away from the fun!
^Real doh
Elliott got two small real play doh containers as Christmas gifts and he hasn't stopped playing with them since! the doh keeps getting smaller and smaller as little pieces go missing and dry up.

I remembered it had been almost two years since we made our own play doh and I figured it was beyond due time we made some more.
^two years ago!

^ omg. he was so tiny and sweet!
one of the best things about this blog is going back and reliving the memories through the posts.
I've been a blogger for 2.5 years and although time consuming, it was one of the best moves I've made!
which is funny because minus you guys, the readers, I don't get a whole lot of blog support.
Its one of those judgey things where when people don't understand they criticize and belittle.
I don't talk about it a lot because I hate, hate.
but I get the "you're so obsessed with yourself"
the "you can't write. its called grammar and punctuation."
the (a lot of this one comes from other bloggers which RLY boils my blood)
"so you're a mommy blogger? beauty blogger? you don't post enough beauty. we don't want to hear about your personal life." etc. etc. etc.
Ugh. so much dram.
this year I'm making it a priority to accept I am who I am.
and that's who I'm gonna be!
so I write.
and sometimes I write in private.
I have a draft folder with about 20 blog posts in it, its my "when something annoys me or is controversial" folder.
You have no idea how good it feels to let words flow out of you when they start to feel so bottled up like you may explode. I am not against sharing these post eventually, its just I have a hard time coming round to a point lol. most of those posts are unfinished so I haven't felt they're ready to be released.
I recommend anyone keep a blog or journal just to help work out those emotions/remember the memories!
anyway back to the dough....
here's my original blog post:
and here is my girl April's original recipe:
 2.5 is SUCH a good age for this activity..
Elliott was so impressed and played ALL day.
I mean ALL DAY, dusk till dawn, then I put it in the fridge and we will reuse all week I'm sure!

^ look at his little legs. omg.
what a little man.

I threw in some cookie cutters, a fork, a cup and any other little plastic toys that I thought would be helpful in creating masterpieces.
I let him play in the living room A LOT.
its risky, yes.
but the truth is I want to be involved in his play and I also want to watch mommy Netflix...
so I put down a plastic bag and luckily I've raised a neat freak so he keeps the dough (mostly) on the table.

night time and STILL playing..
The next activity, we did the day before and it was a fluke play time.
I've been compulsive about hand washing lately and I've been trying to get Elliott to learn to wash his hands without my assistance.
We are not quite there yet but he does stand on his foot stool and wash with my help of handing the soap/turning on the water. he was having so much fun a couple of days ago I thought why not fill up the sink and let him go wild..
we've done this in the summer multiple times with a bowl or pool but this was the first time I walked away and let him splash while I made supper.
this washroom is literally off the kitchen so I was listening to make sure he wasn't soaking the room top to bottom (again he's a neat freak so I have more confidence leaving him with these tasks)
He was in there for about an hour and a half I swear!
I had to keep warming up the water because he was playing so long I was scared he would get cold!

I purchased one of those little fake shaving kits for him for Christmas, which came with a "shaving cream" aka mouldable bath foam and all hail that foam!
once he got his hands on it, it was all over. now he asks for the "fom" every time we go into the bathroom. loll

that's how we've been keeping busy lately, anyone have more suggestions for inside excitement?!?!

its getting more and more fun to do crafts and activities like these together because he's getting good at listening and taking direction. I let him help pour the flour and stir the dry ingredient's for the play doh making.

anywoo I have some beauty and new baby talk coming up this week but for now I have a doctors appointment tomorrow so keep you posted!!